I wrote this song last year so I'm just sharing it. Let me know what you think.
Thanks for reading it.
Title: I'll Sell Me.
I ain’t got a halo, I ain’t got a home
Just this borrowed skin I learned to crawl in alone
Kept my voice quiet, kept my truth hid
Put a lock on my soul like my daddy did
If I dress it up right, will you see me then?
If I smile like I mean it, will I be worth a second glance?
I’ll bleach out the scars, I’ll bite back the shame
Put your name on the hurt, I’ll shoulder the blame
I’ll sell me, piece by piece
Wrap me in ribbon, lay me at your feet
Say the word, I’ll be your sin, your silence, your need
I’ll be the lie you believe
I’ll fold who I am ‘til the edges bleed
Don’t want the truth, just take what you see
If that’s what it takes to be loved
Then I’ll sell me
Had a name once, soft as a prayer
Before the world told me it wasn’t welcome there
I carved out my heart to make more space
For the man you want, in my rightful place
God, I’d give up the parts I still don’t understand
Just to hear your voice say, “I want that man”
Paint me holy, or paint me used
I’ll be anything that you don’t have to choose
I’ll sell me, soul and skin
Break me down just to let you in
Call it love, call it lust, call it anything
Just don't let me be nothing
I’ll choke back truth, I’ll swallow him
Hide every kiss like original sin
Just don’t leave me here like this again
I’ll sell me
He said there ain’t no price on his love…
But I got debts he don’t know of
He don’t know the cost to be seen,
When the mirror hates the man I’ve been
I ain’t asking him to save me
Just to choose me
Even if the “me” he sees is a lie
Even if he kisses me just to say goodbye
I’ll sell me, threadbare and bare
For a place in your arms, or a piece of your stare
I’ll be hollow, I’ll be hollow if it makes me seen
I’ll be anyone, I’ll be anything
God, I’ll even be clean
If that’s what it takes to be loved…
Then I’ll sell me
Ain’t no price too steep
Ain’t no lie too deep
If love’s the cost
Then let me be cheap
I’ll sell me.