This is more so a rant, but it's also a question. I just don't know what to do. I have this professor at CSJ and I think she's an amazing lecturer but for some reason she has it out for me. I used to always ask her questions after class ends until one day she told me to book an appointment with her so we could discuss it more in depth. I was unable to do so that same week so I emailed her the following week asking if she had any availability. She seemed not pleased by the fact that I contacted her so late and I apologized for it, telling her I just didn't have the time and I didn't want to waste her time over a simple question when I could collect more questions to discuss with her about. Fast forward to the day of our meeting, she was so mean! She didnt seem interested at all in any of the questions I had, telling me "oh, you should've learnt this from highschool" or "oh, if you actually paid attention in class then you wouldn't be asking me these questions". At one point, she even criticized my French! I explained that it wasn't my first language and I am insecure about it, that also being the reason I don't participate a lot in class (her classes are usually heavy with participation and she always picks people to answer questions, more on that later). I told her I graduated high school school like 3 years ago and so my french is a little rusty speaking wise, and I'm more so taking her class to improve my french. Heck, English isn't even my first language! Other than that, I have no problem understanding her in class. She also kept criticizing my accent as I was struggling to pronounce a word, even though I was LITERALLY pointing at it. Her exact words were "Its impossible to understand you, are you sure you know how to speak French?". After that, she straight up told me this class was not for me. Idk it just made me feel so dumb and small and I was just upset because I thought she was super kind. She ended the appointment early saying this could've been an email and how professors are really busy people and there were a line of other students who had genuine questions who could've been here. I just apologized before I left and I literally hid in the toilets after that because I was bawling my eyes out. After that, she sent me an email for French resources to apparently improve it.
After that, I kept showing up to class mostly because of active participation and though she doesnt usually pick on me after I told her I'm uncomfortable answering questions, she still picks on me occasionally. One time she asked me a question and I said I didnt know the answer, she straight up said in front of everyone "so if you don't know the answer, whats stopping you from asking a question?". Maybe it wasn't a big deal, but I just thought it was humiliating.
Fast forward to our first midterm, she has it so we could only see our tests after booking an appointment with her. The first thing she said to me wasn't a hi or a hello, it was "have you consulted those resources I gave you?" I told her I didn't because I didn't think I needed it. I got an 82% on the midterm. On the midterm there were some open-ended questions and she straight up told me my sentences didn't make sense even if I got almost full points on all of them?? She told me mosr of my words were unintelligible and told me some words were missing accents on it, blah blah blah. I apologized and told her it was probably due to me writing fast. She also said "out of 5 TAs that corrected the papers, not one of them understood what you were trying to convey, you're lucky you got a good grade. Congratulations." Hello??? Then she just let me skim over the questions in silence, but even then I had asked her two questions about stuff I got wrong, not once was she helpful, she was saying things like "it was in the PowerPoint, did you even read through it?", "it was on the revision test" or "It's not my fault that your french comprehension is developed enough to understand the question". She was SO passive aggressive the entire time, at one point she even said "well, thats what all the researchers seem to agree on, if you have a problem with their consensus, how about you go contact them?". I just sat there and nodded until I had to go. But its just so exhausting. She isn't interfering with my life directly, but I'm afraid to ask her questions and sit with her alone one on one. I asked other people in my class if they had any similar experiences with her and they also say that she might be a bit intimidating, but she's overall super kind with them. So why me?!?! I'm convinced I probably did something terrible to her in a past life or something.
Do you guys think I should bring this up to someone or is it not that serious? And even if I did, what would change? I'm just looking for input if anyone has had a similar experience with professors like these because literally all the other professors in my other courses are some of the sweetest people in the world and are actually super patient if you come up to them after class or at their office hours. She's the first AND hopefully last one. I thought I'd avoid professors like that but her RMF profile is generally positive with a 3.7/5. Sorry for the long rant!!
