Bonjour à tous,

Je vis en France et je suis actuellement enceinte de 15 SA.
Mon NIPT est revenue positif à la T21..
Je dois faire une amniocentese cette semaine mais les docteurs ont étés clairs avec moi et m’ont dit que le NIPT était fiable à 99% pour la T21 et que l’amniocentese ne servait qu’à confirmer le diagnostic a 100%, également dans mon pays je ne peux pas interrompre la grossesse sans l’amniocentese car c est le seul diagnostic fiable à 100%.
Les docteurs m’ont dit que je devrais ensuite accoucher par voie basse…
Je suis totalement anéantie, j’ai pleuré pendant des jours j’en ai voulu à la terre entière de vivre ça… maintenant je ne ressens plus rien, j’ai l’impression d’être déconnectée de mon bébé… de juste attendre que cela se termine.. ça paraît horrible de dire ça je sais..
Je suis seule avec ma fille de 3 ans mon mari est dans un autre pays, je me sens tellement mal d’affronter cela toute seule…
Merci de m’avoir lu

I am 12 weeks post tfmr. I have never really experienced this before even postpartum so asking if this is common or anyone who had experience? I am not sure if it's PMS but it seems out of control. I feel alot of rage, anger that I can't seem to control. I find myself getting frustrated/mad and yelling at my kids so often. I do say sorry for how I acted right after.

I swore directly at my husband today as I have asked him to get up and help me with getting the kids ready while I cook. He didn't help and I yelled at him, called him lazy and swore at him (which I never really do). He does this all the time and waits for me to yell or get angry before he starts moving.

I am not sure if I should set a GP appointment and start getting medicated.. and if so what do they usually put you on to help?

I filed for financial assistance over a month ago to see what could be erased. My insurance didn’t really cover anything as it was labeled as an abortion under the codes used.

So while I wait to see if I’m approved for any financial assistance coverage I’ve been bombarded with collection calls/texts/emails/bills

Like… my baby just died. Can yall WAIT A F*CKING MINUTE 😭

This feels like it should be illegal but I know it’s not

Anyone else cycle between;
- absolute disassociation and feeling like you’re drifting through a life you no longer recognise
- moments of joy and feeling like you’re “back to your normal self”
- triggered by seeing pregnant women some days, then not on others
- overwhelmed with sadness randomly
- cry easily at things like movies or songs

Is this what healing looks like? I just feel quite bizarre and can’t keep up with the unpredictable nature of it all. I’m used to being quite stable/level headed.

I truly feel like I’ll never fully be the same person ever again, as if a piece of my heart was torn out of my chest and I’ll carry this hole in my heart forever.

EDIT: thank you all for making me feel less alone, I send hugs to you all.

Three weeks post TFMR (week 15, L&D).

I dread the future questions and forms of whether I have children and whether I am a mother. How do you guys cope? What do you answer? When do you share how much information?

I feel like all binary answers that I at some point will have to pick feel wrong and I hate the world for that already.