r/UBC • u/Just_Expression_6826 • 6h ago
Term isn’t going great
Basically the title. Registered for 5 classes this term because I thought I could handle it, but surprise surprise my mental health is even worse this year than it was last year, and I missed a bunch of classes for this one course because I physically couldn’t get out of bed because I’d spend the nights before just absolutely paralyzed with sadness, and I bombed the midterm so I ended up withdrawing from the course last night. I don’t even recognize myself anymore- skipping classes, withdrawing from a course, handing in every assignment late, not preparing for midterms and assessments. Even at my worst last year, it wasn’t to this extreme level of indifference. What makes it worse is that I want to be a good student, I want to do well so I can get a great job in the future, but it’s so goddamn hard to care about anything when your mental health is so shit. I just feel like a failure, I feel bad that I’m out $700 for dropping a course because I gaslighted myself into thinking I’m doing better now. I know university is not easy for anyone, but why is it so difficult for me to stay afloat? UBC was my dream school but nothing has gone as I imagined or planned now that I’m actually here.