I've been taking Fluvoxamine (SSRI) 100mg/day (OCD +Anxiety)for 8 months. After 3 months of taking fluvox I i started smoking cigarettes daily lately i feel like my med is not working as it used to. My anxiety is not as managed/suppressed as it used to when i started taking fluvox. Anyone has any opinion/take/advice on effect of Tobacco on anxiety medication and anxiety?

I had anxiety before like 2 years ago for a month due to stress, and it was genuinely the worst experience of my life. I was praying it never came back. ANYWAY- It came back like 3 weeks ago and I've already had 2 panic attacks. I'm soooooooooooooo sorry for you guys that had it for months/years. I've been anxious everyday on the verge for no reason. what do i do bro, I've never done this before 😭

Hi everyone. I'm a 32-year-old unmarried Indian woman. Have no known family history of A**. I've experienced chronic anxiety and stress for years.

My timeline

• June 2020: I suffered a complete ligament tear in my right ankle, which was never treated.
• November 2025: Widespread muscle twitching began after a viral illness and has continued since.
• July 2026: I fell while intoxicated and injured my left ankle.

My symptoms

• Widespread muscle twitching, constant tremors in my hands and legs, muscle cramps and spasms.
• Widespread body pain, including when walking now.
• Pins and needles or tingling in both arms and legs.
• Tight muscles in my arms, shoulders and legs. My massage therapist has commented on how tight they feel.
• Shaky legs when standing on my heels or tiptoes, although I can still perform both.
• My right leg and ankle feel weaker and less stable. I feel like I have to grip the ground harder with my right foot to maintain my balance.
• My legs and feet fatigue after short distances.
• Although I injured my left ankle more recently, my right ankle and leg seem to be causing me more difficulty, particularly given my previous untreated ligament tear.
• I'm still able to walk, stand and perform everyday activities, but some things are becoming increasingly difficult.
• My right arm fatigues significantly when I perform gripping tasks**.** I can still carry out the tasks, but the fatigue and discomfort afterward can be severe. Being able to complete an activity doesn't mean I feel okay afterward.
• Lifting anything heavy can leave my neck feeling severely affected. My neck pain and tightness become so bad that it feels as though my neck can no longer cope with the strain.
• Shoulder and arm pain after physical effort, even though my grip strength seems normal.
• Neck pain and tightness.
• Sudden breathlessness when lying down at night, as well as breathlessness when walking, climbing stairs or going uphill.
• Sudden morning headaches.
• Dry cough when dehydrated, throat-clearing or post-nasal drip after eating, and a watery nose sometimes when running or walking briskly.
• Leg cramps after orgasm.

All these have happend to exaggerate after my fall in July. I'm extremely frightened. I've read too many stories online, and now almost every symptom makes me spiral. I'm struggling to eat, sleep and think clearly because I'm constantly worrying about what this could mean.

I'm exhausted by the constant fear and overthinking. I just needed to share what I've been experiencing , Am gping CRAZY. I just want to live my life in Peace and happiness. I went too deep down in the rabbit hole .

Hi all. I was diagnosed earlier this year with general anxiety disorder. The good news is I haven’t had a real panic attack in a few months and I feel like I manage it pretty well without meds. Daily on a sale of 1 to 10, I’d put mine at a 4 in terms of annoyance, maybe a 6 at night when it seems to be more present.

Anyways, I know it’s probably the anxiety, but at random times I’ll get chest pains. Not necessarily painful, but just random warm sensations or like a tingling sensation. Sometimes yes it is a sudden spiky feeling but it’s very quick and goes away.

I’ve had every test imaginable done from blood work, EKG, wearing a heart monitor and Echocardiogram tests which all came back normal/okay.

I just find these random pains so annoying. Something someone explain to me was that anxiety amplifies these to make them seem worse than they are. Is that true?

I just want to feel like I’m not alone and other experience random chest pains too.

i've recently decided to attempt the process of getting diagnosed, however, sitting in that doctor's chair was problem one of the most dreading experiences ever.

i felt like i couldn't verbalize what i was feeling/going through/experiencing and honestly completely shut down. i started wondering if i was overreacting and making things a bigger deal than they should be. after all, if i was doing fine until now, so what was the point?

how are you supposed to advocate for yourself, when advocating itself is causing me anxiousness? i can't stop doubting my own feelings when i know they're doing something to me. i've tried writing them down, but the feeling that i'm blowing things out of proportion is haunting me. i'm trying again with my doctor is a few weeks, but i'm scared i'm just going to mess it up again...

my heart felt like it was pounding and then numb and i called 911 bc i was really scared heart rate was in 130 even just sitting. they came and took vitals said they were good and i am okay it’s prolly anxiety so i didn’t go to the er and i just cant stop panicking. i literally have a cardio appt in the am like in 7 hours i just want to sleep but im afraid im having something bad rn and im gonna die in my sleep. idk what to do i am freaking out

My worst anxiety symptom is pacing. It’s like the moment I feel anxious I just start pacing and can’t stop! I’m seeing a counsellor for my anxiety and I’ve only been to 4 appointments so it’s still early on but I have yet to figure out how to stop pacing.

I have an Apple Watch and the days I’m anxious my steps are insane like 15,000 steps in only a few hours of wearing it. It’s like I feed my anxiety with pacing and make it worse. My counsellor has me starting a routine and journaling but I can’t see how that stops my pacing. Mainly my pacing is on days I work and thankfully I work at a library so when I get there I can put books away while I’m pacing to somewhat mask the anxiety but it is affecting how efficient I am at my job.

I’d give anything to go back to the anxious teenager who would click my pen or would tap my foot on the ground. So is there any way I can stop pacing????

I feel so embarrassed and hypocritical

I keep saying I'll work on doing better and going out more but something has been keeping me stuck inside

Like my anxiety spiked i keep apologizing to people over small things and I feel upset that I can't figure out what's making me upset

I wanted to celebrate that I was eating again but I feel like im trying to walk on a running speed treadmill

I font know what's wrong I cant make myself go out I slept until 2 yesterday and I keep saying I'll make myself go to class but it isn't working I just feel so bad about going out even though I want to

I cant tell if its just general anxiety or about smth like the volunteer shift I'm starting Saturday but I feel so gross and food hasn't been appealing to me

I just wanna get better

Hello. So I’m 5 months into my accelerated BSN program and it’s been tough this semester. I feel very burnt out and anxious. I prayed to get accepted into this program btw and have had some very good days. Also some bad days (like all people). Some days I’m okay and good and joyful but these days I’ve just been anxious. Have you experienced this? I feel like in my cohort not many talk about anxiety. Mine has become worse. I had a panic attack the other day during class. Then I was okay. I just feel like we have homework all the time and clinicals and exams each week. I am def burnt out. And I fainted the other time watching my first live birth and it made me just so embarrassed. I just want tips on how you regulated burnout. I keep thinking of all the exams I have ahead and assignments and it just makes me dizzy thinking about it and my train of thoughts spiral! I keep thinking of the future and even like get scared of developing depressing and just suffering. Help. Please.

I wanted to share my experience with sleep anxiety in the hope that it might help someone else going through the same thing.

It all started about two years ago, after one night of bad sleep. I’ve always loved sleeping and never had any issues with it before. But that one night somehow changed everything. I started worrying about my sleep, trying all sorts of things to make sure I could sleep well, and the more I tried to control it, the more anxious I became. Eventually, I developed terrible sleep anxiety.

Around that time, I found out I was pregnant. I’m not sure if there was any connection, but having a new purpose in life helped me forget about the whole thing for a while.

Unfortunately, the anxiety returned when my baby was around four months old, and it has resurfaced again recently. I’ve realised that the thought of sleep anxiety has always been somewhere in the back of my mind, and even the smallest thing can trigger it.

But this time, I’m trying a different approach.

1. Changing the way I respond to anxious thoughts

Whenever the thoughts start racing and I feel anxiety building up, I remind myself: I slept well for so many years without even thinking about sleep. If my body knew how to sleep all those years, why should I suddenly believe that I’ve forgotten how?

This helps me step back from the thought instead of getting caught up in it. I acknowledge it, remind myself that I don’t need to solve anything right now, and continue with whatever I was doing.

1. Learning more about the mind through Buddhism

I’ve started listening to Buddhist talks and podcasts about the mind and anxiety, particularly Ajahn Brahm’s talks and the Modern Buddhism podcast.

One thing I’m learning is that thoughts are just thoughts. Just because my mind produces a frightening thought doesn’t mean it’s a fact or that I need to react to it.

I’ve also started being more compassionate towards myself. Instead of treating my anxiety as an enemy that I need to fight and defeat, I’m trying to treat it like a friend. It’s uncomfortable, but I don’t need to be angry with myself for experiencing it.

1. Making meditation a daily practice

This is something I’m particularly excited about. I’ve decided to meditate every day for a month and see how it affects my relationship with my thoughts and anxiety.

I’m Buddhist, so I’ve always known about meditation, but I’ve only recently started exploring the different types of meditation and how they can help with the way we relate to our thoughts.

For now, I’m practising breathing meditation. Rather than trying to force my mind to become completely quiet, I’m learning to notice when my attention wanders and gently bring it back to my breath.

I’m trying to approach this as a practice rather than expecting it to fix everything overnight.

1. Changing my goal when I go to bed

This has been one of the biggest realisations for me.

My goal is no longer to make myself sleep. My goal is simply to rest and relax.

I can’t force myself to fall asleep. The harder I try to make it happen, the more pressure I put on myself. So now, when I close my eyes, I’m trying to let my body do what it naturally knows how to do, without constantly checking whether I’m falling asleep.

If sleep comes, that’s great. If it takes longer than I’d like, I want to learn to be okay with that, too.

I’ve realised how much time and energy I’ve spent worrying about something that used to happen so naturally. Meanwhile, there’s so much of life to experience, so many things to enjoy, and so much good we can do.

I’m also learning to let go of the need to control everything.

I know this might not be the end of my sleep anxiety. These thoughts might come back and torment me again. But I want to keep responding to them differently, rather than allowing them to take over my life.

I don’t expect to become completely free of anxious thoughts. I just want to reach a point where they no longer have so much power over me.

I’m still learning, and I know I have a long way to go. But for the first time, I feel like I’m beginning to understand that I don’t have to fight my mind to find peace.

If you’re going through something similar, I hope you know that you’re not alone. ❤️

I’d also love to hear from anyone who has experienced sleep anxiety and found ways to change their relationship with it. What helped you?

I am struggling really bad with rumination. What im focused on does change week by week , but recently it has been over pest in my home. its so bad that its causing me to not sleep. When i get stuck in this thought pattern , i typically dont sleep all night. ive been basically scrubbing my floors , ive done all the checks. We had what we believe was a wood roach crawl in from outside , totally harmless but i cannot stop thinking about there possibly being an infestation in my home. i even stayed up one night to see ifni heard amything. i told my psychiatrist about how i have these things happen and im worried i may be struggling with ocd and he told me no since pretty much everytest ive done points to high levels of anxiety. This drives me insane tho , not long ago i was fixated on if my son has autism. i am on meds but i feel lile atp they arent working. What can i do ? how i can stop this ? i feel like im going insane.

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Has anyone found medication helpful for feeling intensely rejected, constantly criticised, believing people dislike you or want to hurt you, and feeling the urge to run away from social situations?

Almost like a constant sense of threat or paranoia.

I'd love to hear about your experiences and what helped you.

If so, what medication and what dosage?

Thank you!

I had my first panick attack due to cocaine on 10 june 2026 i called an ambulance was to the er doctors said i had nothing since than every Night is terrifying i get pnicks Attack one after the other for 6-7 hours it starts by feeling weird Sensation in one of my feet of fingers and if i checked it onetime the loop starts i will spend the whole night checking my Body taking Picture evwry morning I delete 300 Pictures of my Body parts from my gallery
The symptoms are weird Sensation in legs arms seeing that your feet and hand getting bluish and pale but reality if i ask someone else they say it’s completely normal att to that sore triceps and redness spreading from triceps to neck face and chest and i only can think that am dying like having heart attack or blood clotting or stroke
What Solution or is it really anxiety or tjere is somene like me any Simular Experience?

Lately ive getting what i can only explain as like an “adrenaline surge” type feeling in my arms, that i think is triggered by anxiety. Specifically, hangxiety after drinking. I have experienced it in other situations, but seems like it started this time after drinking. I also havent been sleeping great in general. Like it feels like almost an electrical feeling running through my veins. Not necessarily painful, not tingly or numb, almost like i cant sit still, but is mainly just in my arms/hands. It does go away when i am distracted which is why im pretty sure its anxiety. Has anyone experienced this?

I didn’t even want to make this post because I’d have to type out its name and put my fears out into the world.

I’m 24, Balkan male, and have absolute no family history of it. Matter of fact basically everyone in my family has died at a pretty old age with the exception of my grandfather who worked with asbestos.

I get random twitches all over my body. It FEELS like sometimes my phone is heavier in my right hand (dominant hand) than my left. When I’m running my hands through my hair my right bicep tires quicker but this isn’t exactly “new”. I’m also 135 lbs, 5’10”, and inactive - you can feel my scapula through the skin (back of shoulder bone). That’s basically it.

Everyday I’m buttoning and unbuttoning shirts.
At work I will hide to do some pushups and see if everything is balanced.
I’ve started walking on my tippy toes to see if there’s failure.
I’ve started balancing seashells on my thumbs and trying to flip them over with my pointer finger.
Constantly gripping things with just the thumb and pointer. Then the thumb and middle finger. And so on down the line.
Constantly opening my hands to see if the pointer finger lags or is the first to be raised.
I’ll randomly grab a pen and start writing to stuff to test my motor control and dexterity.
So much random bullshit that’s driving me crazy.
I bought a grip strength trainer and have gotten stronger with it, yet still, no mental progress. Two weeks ago I could barely close down 40kg, now I can make the ends audibly click 15-20 times in succession with both hands.

It all started when I read that cannabis collects heavy metals and that heavy metal exposure can lead to that disease.
I started smoking weed when I was 16, and mostly pre rolls. Pre rolls have even more heavy metals in them - in the rolling paper. I also live in a legal state where the stuff has to pass tests…
I’ve quit weed cold turkey as I’m sure it’s also lead to my anxiety by consuming high THC daily for almost a decade.

I want to do an EMG but that extremely tiny possibility of the unwanted result is what scares me. I am going crazy.

Just saw a psychiatrist. She confirmed social anxiety, but when I asked for pregabalin, even just a 30-day trial, she said it's outside the standard of care since I haven't done therapy yet. Her plan is daily propranolol plus therapy.

I've already tried a few SSRIs/SNRIs with no luck, and propranolol only really helps the physical side, not the overthinking.

If you're on pregabalin for social anxiety, how'd you end up getting it? What did you try first, and what finally got your doctor on board?

So I am 23M in graduate school. I cannot afford for my brain to be any less sharp. I know that SSRIs tend to made people feel less sharp. I've been on sertaline before, when I was 18 or so, and did not love how it made me feel. I recently attended a talk on sublingual ketamine. The doc who spoke about it was very passionate about its effects. They told many positive stories about patients in remission for their anxiety/depression or other mental health issues. However when I looked up sublingual ketamine's effectiveness, it was sitting around 50% (which I understand is good because usually people who are trying sublingual ketamine have been resistant to other medications, thus helping 50% of the previously unhelpable is a big win). I bring that up because the doc made it feel like it was working for everyone, so I was surprised that the treatment success rate wasn't higher.

I guess my questions surround: has anyone tried it and be willing to tell me their experiences, the good and the bad? Has anyone tried just trying sublingual ketamine without being on any other anti-anxiety medications? The doc mentioned people feeling as if they were operating at a higher cognition while taking the sublingual ketamine; can anyone speak to this effect? (Just to be clear, I would not be taking sublingual ketamine for its increased cognition, its just that if I were to take a medication for anxiety I would prefer one that will not detract from my studies.)

I don’t have the drive to do much for myself if I’m honest, I struggle with Social anxiety and OCD and I’ve been depressed for a good chunk of my life because of abuse. Im 23 and have never worked and I have just now begun school (starting online before transferring) and I don’t feel particularly passionate about what I’m going into it just seems like the thing I’d hate the least. Everyday I’m slapped in the face with people getting degree after degree and starting families and how they don’t struggle to do basic things the way I do and I don’t feel envious , I don’t particularly want any of that(except for being able to function normally) I just feel kind of sad that I’ll never been seen as as much of person as them.

I’m filled with so much shame and everything feels humiliating, I just want to enjoy a quiet “mediocre” life in peace . A quiet job even if it’s not lucrative or impressive, maybe save up for a nice little house or something on my own and just spend the rest of my days doing as I please , why do people make that so difficult? Why is there so much pressure to perform and impress it makes me feel like I’m in a fish bowl. I attempted once a few years back , and I don’t think I’d do it again but I often fantasize about getting so sick no one expects anything of me and I’m finally left alone. The state of the world has me paralyzed and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to provide for myself unless I stay with my parents , which I don’t mind at all but I know others would make a big deal of it. Socializing is so difficult and I’m naturally fairly quiet and all that’s caused is people assuming I’m stuck up or something and it just makes the feeling of constantly being judged worse.

I know the answer is to stop caring about what people think but how do I do that with the “I care about what people are thinking” disorders? I feel like my body is constantly betraying me because deep down I really don’t care! i believe everyone is on their own paths and have their own goals and I’m not very competitive or jealous or anything yet such a big part of me is constantly terrified of being judged or humiliated. I stutter and my skin turns white and I get faint, I get full body tremors and hives over things I know don’t matter, it makes me feel so small. Autoimmune diseases run in my family and it seems that I pulled the short straw and have RA at 23 so on top of it all my body is always in pain. I’m just so tired and I’m trying to make peace with the “do it scared” approach . It feels like so much more than fear and it’s hard to make people understand. I wonder if anyone else strives for simple quiet peace ? Is it weird to just want to exist ? I’m sorry for how long this is and thank you for taking the time to read it if you made it this far :)

Trigger warning i think?

I have an EXTREME fear of herpes. A horrible phobia. Its irrational. Thats what the school counselor tells me to think of it as, irrational. I should mention that im a highschooler right now in sophomore year. I'm not an adult, i cant do my own medical decisions really, so counseling isnt an option until my mom talks to my doctor.

My friend, T, gets cold sores. She didnt have one today, but she gets them. Ive explicitly pulled her aside and told her not to touch me or my stuff because i get so scared that sometimes i cant even sleep at night. She seemed understanding, but doesnt respect this boundary of mine. Today i was very tired. I had a mountain dew because i didnt have time to eat breakfast and drink a coffee or something to wake me up. I still had 75% of the mountain dew left when she put her hand on the lid. I know i wont get herpes from that, but i couldnt bring myself to drink the rest of it. I put it in my locker and washed my hands about a million times. I did start tearing up a little bit, but i felt better when i got to see my best friend again (my homie Daniel 🥹🙏)

Anyways, time passes and i feel better. Then i have class with T again. T puts her HEAD on my binder in french class. I was horrified. I started to cry again, and i had to very awkwardly tell my french teacher I, a teenage boy, had to go to the nurse because I was going to have a panic attack. I ran to the nurses office and sobbed for a HOT minute while talking to the really hot young nurse who used to get cold sores but now takes medication. I dont think that its really the cold sore thats scary, but i dont know what IS. I had to go to the counselor's office because i couldnt force myself to touch my binder. She talked me through stuff and all, and told me to write a list of how this fear affects my life. She said that i was showing a lot of OCD behavior with this, and of course ive never had any kind of mental evaluation EVER so i have no idea if thats true 😒. If it helps, my other friend said he thought i was already diagnosed.

Anyways, what im really trying to say here is that im sick of this. Im sick of running to my mother's room in the middle of the night to cry in her arms. Im sick of swishing hand sanitizer in my mouth because i accidentally touched my face. Its not a normal reaction. I just want ONE good night of sleep. ONE! One without sobbing my heart out! Hell, id take a night of sobbing my heart out over a girl or something rather than this. I wish i had something NORMAL to cry about. I almost threw up last night out of nervousness, and i need someone to just..understand. i talked to Daniel, who also has health anxiety, and he thinks im crazy. My other friend who's more specifically also scared of herpes (which unfortunately i think may be my fault from freaking out so much) watched me put sanitizer on my face, once again, thinking i was crazy. All the people i assume to understand really don't. I want someone to at least SOMEWHAT relate to me somehow, someone to at least offer me support 😔

im so tired of being anxious all day and every day. ive tried everything but nothing works. like i get things like meds arent supposed to make anxiety all go away, but itd be nice to have some breaks yk. most of the time i dont even know why or what im anxious about. like im only 19 but im already exhausted and dont know how im going to live like this for the rest of my life. it doesnt seem possible. like does it ever decrease as you get older?

all i want is a break. i always wake up anxious because my dreams are horrible, then i go throughout my day with severe social anxiety rooted in my selective mutism which ive had since i was four, then i go to bed still anxious because the day is ending and i know i have to repeat it tomorrow. im just so exhausted.

i know that most of my anxiety is triggered in school environments which are unavoidable until im done with school, but then i have to enter the work environment which just seems like the same thing. so it just feels like life will be endless anxiety 24/7 and i dont think im up to that. i know there are ways to probably work around these environments, but i still have dreams and goals that would be impossible to achieve if i avoid these situations.

i wish i was exagerating that my anxiety is a constant, but im not. and that just makes me sad. it makes me sad that past me and future me wont catch a break. it makes me sad that the one thing thats been holding me back and hurting my entire life is my anxiety.

for my entire life, ive always been called pessimistic because of all my worries. but id think im more optimistic. i dont think id be here today if i wasnt hopeful that the future would be better. but does it ever end? does anyone else feel this way?

anyways, thanks for letting me vent lol

Put a trigger warning for anyone who also battles health anxiety & doesn't need it flared by reading the post.

I have PMDD on top of anxiety bc why not! This month has been a bit stressful & while in luteal the anxiety has REALLY amped up.

I've battled a discomfort in my chest for awhile now. Specifically in the middle part. I'm like 99% sure it's from tight muscles / crying / panic attacks & straining when yelling. I've mentioned it to docs a few times but nobody seems that concerned.

Tonight, my anxiety was level 100 as I was trying to wrap up the evening & handle my family. My chest started to hurt and instantly my health anxiety was like "a heart attack is coming!!!"

While I do have history of heart issues on both sides of my mom's family...I just saw the heart doc not that long ago & did a heart monitor. They said all was good.

I have insurance so I plan to make an appt with my doc & cardio just to ease my thoughts. I showered and relaxed and it went away but is still a bit tender as I'm laying here.

I know that having a heart attack in my 30s & with an overall health heart isn't that normal but my anxiety has me convinced the stress will do me in. Part of me is like GO TO THE ER NOW...but I have no other symptoms and the other part of me is like....just go to bed.

Just looking for reassurance / advice / anything to help calm my mind. I haven't battled health anxiety in awhile & hate it's creeping up again.

For pretty much most of my life I always felt anxious. Social anxiety was always prevelant however as Ive gotten older Ive found ways to handle my anxiety and attack my problems head on.

Before I moved out for university, I had never touched drugs, never smoked, only drank properly when I turned 18, very straight edge.

However that all changed when I moved out for university. I started experimenting with all kinds of drugs (Weed, cocaine, ketamine, MDMA, shrooms). I loved it at first because it was new and shiny, and I felt invincible.

One night I went to a rave and took half a pill of MDMA. The experience was great all throughout the rave, no comeup sickness, just pure bliss and love. But when I took the second half, after the rave had finished and I went back to a friends house, it all changed me forever.

I took the second half of the pill, which was the most I had taken at that point. I felt fine for 20 minutes until I looked at my friends lamp in his kitchen. I have no idea why but my eyes started violently shaking. At that point I knew the MDMA hit me. I then felt my heart absolutely racing, which then spiralled me into my first ever panic attack.

I was convinced I was dying at this point. I was pacing round my friends garden for a good 20 minutes (which felt like forever) with my life flashing before my eyes. Eventually I calmed down, and the high was great.

After that experience I have not felt the same since. I used cocaine here and there after but I hated it, and only did it so I didnt feel left out. I realised that I should never touch drugs ever again because of the immense anxiety I have around it. Even typing this out is making me shake.

I had a few panic attacks after this experience, but haven't had one March of this year since my anxiety has gotten better and I have quit drugs altogether.

I think its also worth mentioning that I never really abused drugs either, even at my worst I was maybe doing coke once a month? then a pill every 6 months.

This anxiety around drugs is a blessing in disguise for me, since its made me reflect on the fact that I am not invincible, and drugs are extremely dangerous and that they are more trouble than they're worth (Awful for the body, expensive, illegal, and not to mention the comedowns) and that I should stay away from them for the rest of my life. Anxiety and drugs go together like water and oil.

I still drink on occasion and even if I am offered drugs by someone, it makes me viscerally sweat. Luckily even drunk me still doesn't think its a good idea to say yes. While those times have changed me and my perception on life, I'm still glad I experimented while also being lucky for leaving that lifestyle before it got out of hand.