Had his funeral today took care of the service personaly livestream was my department now I sit alone and I want blood I want to kill and rip everon to shreds kill and kill and murder and in way I get I want to feel the blood on my hands I need revenge and the one thing I am afraid of is I know I can I know I'm well equipped and I am lost I whatnt revenge but I do not want to hurt anyone of my loved ones I had shitry month lost 2 of my best of freinds got into 2 crashes lost my job lost my money had issues with my family got kidney and liver issues couldn't attend one of the funerals its in Poland and I have no money so goddamn my life fuck everything I regret not ending my self maybe that would of stopped him

Is it bad that I wanna beat men up. I just want to hit them so bad. I don’t hate men. It’s just something I feel like I really need to do. I feel like they need to get beat up. Would I ever hit one? I’m not sure because I’m afraid they’ll hit me back. I’m just saying. Not in a mean way. How do I overcome this issue. Please help.

I’ve been struggling with severe anger issues for a while now. My anger can be extremely impulsive, explosive, and sometimes violent. It’s putting a serious strain on my relationship, and I’m concerned about how difficult it is for me to control my reactions in certain situations.
I recognize that I have a problem, but I don’t fully understand what’s causing it. I don’t know if there are underlying mental health issues, unresolved problems, or something else contributing to my behavior.

I genuinely want professional help. I want to understand why I react the way I do, learn how to regulate my emotions, and stop allowing my anger to negatively affect the people around me.
The problem is that my insurance doesn’t cover the care I need, and I simply can’t afford to pay out of pocket for therapy or psychiatric services.

So my question is, what options do people like me have? Are there free or affordable mental health resources, programs, or services available for someone in my situation?
Has anyone dealt with something similar and successfully gotten help without having much money? Where did you start?

I don't know but I find it so hard to not want to argue with people online especially reddit. I might just be taking out all of my anger on them.

People just say the stupidest things online or they think because they are online they can be overly entitled. So it makes me want to argue over dumb shit.

And then i realize I'm letting something so small fuel my anger for no reason.

Most of them are trolls anyway so I don't know why I let it get to me.