I'm going to kill myself over this woman I swear.
She's gorgeous, funny, smart, a brilliant writer, sweet, kind, amazing taste in shows, thinks I'm beautiful, the list goes on.
Only problem is that she's straight and is dating this ugly piece of shit boy.
We text sometimes, always ending with her saying "goodnight gorgeous" or "goodnight beautiful." I got her to read my embarrassing lesbian erotica and she thoroughly enjoyed it and was very supportive, she doesn't care that I'm a lesbian at all nor is she uncomfortable by it. I just love her so much.
I fantasize about being with her multiple times a day, I've undressed her a million times in my head, made passionate love to her... fuck I wish she liked girls. AT LEAST she might be bisexual and just hasn't realized it... I'm holding onto hope desperately.
Has anyone been in a similar situation?? I'm squealing like a little girl over every text message... I want to die. I need her so bad.
I'm about to start the first episode of a show she likes so I can talk about it with her. I think I'm gonna arrange a hangout with her because I NEED to see her, feel her touch. When we worked together I would follow her like a puppy everywhere, making every excuse to be in her presence. I'm so down bad, I almost never have crushes and this one is severe.
I'm gonna get my heart broken, aren't I?