Overcooked chicken and undercooked rice. No seasonings because I don’t deserve flavour.
Why is it so hard to get with an obese chick?

All I found inside the house was three bowls of porridge

the left one burnt my mouth and the middle one was ice cold but the one on the right was just right

Fruit to sustain another 14 hours of fictional intimacy through xReader fanfic to maintain my rapidly deteriorating will to live

Title sums it up. I might as well be an alien. I have to cast my mind back to be earliest memories to when I wasn't even 8 years old to remember a time I've actually been treated equal to the average person my age.

When I started university I started lifting weights and keeping a good diet, and got a better haircut. I ascended to chadlite imo, I also got extremely lucky with height genetics. It didn't help.

Every new person I'd speak to at uni they'd be all jolly and friendly for the first 10 seconds, then they realise I'm a freak and their tone changes. I can actually see the moment they decide I'm a worthless retard and not a person.

I've graduated now, I'm a 21 year old khhv with a first class degree in electrical engineering from one of the best unis in England. Everything in life that doesn't involve other people has got fantastically.

Anyways I'm trying to start my own product to get rich, as if that's going to help any more than getting shredded or handsome did. It's just cope but at least I'll be able to get a nice house or something.

Thank you for reading my chudpost

I'm not going to kill myself dw❤️

(bro also not an exhibitionist so I can't even watch)

I eat plenty of fiber for reference
Those times where i go to wipe and it comes out clean I get a lil dopamine rush

All health problems, no health insurance, no job, no friends, no life, no intelligence, no love.

been socially isolated for almost 7 years, never seen the sun for a year. I'm starting to feel like my mind is decaying.

I've been getting more suicidal ideations lately, (I'm not going to do anything because I'm a coward, though i have plans in the future), my mental health is just deteriorating, but I can't see a therapist because my family doesn't give a damn about mental health. To top it off, I extremely hate my body but I would have to keep living in it since I can't leave this country. I can never catch a break.

Feel far from Jesus and hated by God. God allowed it that I suffer but didn't allow me to die. Every part of my life feels like God was having a bad day when he created me. Bold of me to assume that He even pays attention to me in the first place.

I've been repressing my sadness for so long it's become anger.

If animals in terrible conditions and no hope get euthanised, then why not let people do it, too?

I hate how governments and people pretend to care about human life while keeping suffering people alive.

But at the end of the day I don't matter and my suffering is not unique. I have to get over it..

Just needed to get this off of my chest.

I guess it's time to pick up my Bible once again. I've been feeling like reading the book of Job.

They either don’t even notice that I’m on the top bunk because of the high safety or they either don’t give a shit. I pretty much just lie in bed when I’m not in class or at the gym so I think people just forget I’m there. they’ve fucked five times in my presence so far and I decided to just say fuck it and enjoy the sound around the third. I’m meant to b a cuck. there’s nothing in life I look forward to except to my daily slop meal and my shitty stale cigarettes

Hi all. Second time posting.

He knows I get zero play but he still comes to be for these things so I just larp. Coaches don’t play so on and so forth.

Unrelated but have you guys seen the discourse on Twitter about that cartoon of a girl rejecting dudes at different ages? Obviously different perspectives, but as a collective, every method of engaging in a relationship seems to have detractors.

Friends to lovers? Nope, you’re a creep for being into your friend and you’re actually exploiting them cause you’re “only friends to sleep with them”

Cold open? Nope, you’re a random stranger weirdo

Coworker/classmate? Nope, it’s inappropriate (which I do agree with) and becoming friends outside of that space links back to the first point.

Dating app? Nope, objectively shallow form of starting a relationship.

The only one I haven’t seen being mentioned was being introduced through a friend.

I’m not gonna pretend I know much about this. I still have a fundamental lack of understanding and interest in romantic relationships outside of a status symbol. But it just makes no sense. There’s no way to reconcile these things. What is the average dude actually supposed to do? Short of a girl coming up to you there’s no way to not be perceived as being a creep by at least some people.

I’m afraid of opening up to people and when I do I always get hurt. Oh, you think you’re trans? Don’t think I could love you anymore. You think life sucks? Please stop being dramatic, just be positive! Therapy not going well? Why do you even bother with it anyways, I don’t need therapy! Antidepressants not working well for you? Please stop talking about it it’s making me depressed lol!!!!!!!!!!

I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone I’m so alone

Feeling very insecure, after being on there days finally had good energy with someone close by we met up at a bad and talked for a couple hours I thought it was fine but I guess I wasn't good enough company as they said they didn't feel anything romantic towards me but in a bit of a ruder way then that.

It's so fucking annoying texting was great but idk I guess I'm just worse and look worse in person ffs ;/

How the fucj do you act romantic? I was just being my batch as self I dony wanna pretend to be someone I'm not more then I already am

And everyone's so fucking slow to reply on them like Jesus

Update: matched and chatting to another girl, good chemistry again and they texted me first to bur after moving off tinder afterca few messages they stopped replying, I keep checking every 20 to 40 mibs like a dog waiting for its owner to come home I'm so pathetic

Boiled from frozen, supermarket pierogi with cheese and potato filling - 3/10. Absolute dogwater taste. Couldnt even tell it had any cheese in them so added a slice of the ol' reliable (gouda). Couldnt be bothered to melt the cheese so just added a bit of ketchup cause it made everything palatable.

they don’t have STDs so no fussing with condoms. and since they’re so desperate you can probably convince them to eat the kitty. who’s my closest khhv cutie?

meanwhile chad is riddled with STDs and STIs and ABCs and just might stealth you if you ask him to wear a condom. let alone giving a damn about your sexual satisfaction whatsoever

i mean if you’re gonna end up disappointed anyway, might as well give to charity

cottage cheese toastie with sugar free jam on sourdough

I don’t really know what to say, I don’t think things will ever get better. I’m doubt that things were even good at one point. I’m just a waste of space, even my dish is mid as fuck.

I’m ugly, do studies that probably won’t matter anymore and the worst part is that I try, I do try to go outside and meet new people like they all say… it just never works, trial is becoming a synonym of failure for me.

I work eleven hours a day for scraps while Stacy makes my biweekly paycheck in a day selling pics on Discord.

If I ever find a girl who loves me for me, I’d take her to the moon.

Son sandwich lost his respect for me and hates me. I'll probably eat him now.

I gooned last night for approximately 4 hours (including clean-up I guess) and my BG went to the 300s and I got extremely sick and nauseous. I tried drinking and started dry heaving and if I had thrown up I'd have to go to the ER and it would be expensive af. I felt like I might pass out while dry heaving and was actually moderaltey worried. I felt too sick to die right then but after I finished dry heaving I felt a lil better and drank more water. I slept for a few hours and felt a lot better then had a dizzy spell and thought I may pass out but I was ok with that cuz I at least wasnt dry heaving. Anyway I didn't even pass out so all that acceptance was for nothing.

Today I decided I couldn't goon again cuz that would be insane to do it two days after that extremely terrible night and obviously I needed a week off so I gooned for 5 hours again but I took insulin so I did better other then severe heart weirdness so I'm worried I caused new heart issues since I have serious heart issues that could kill me and I've been told not to do things that cause my heart this much stress.

I'm a goontard and I probably need a therapist since I have a goon and porn addiction. If soyciety didn't deem me subhuman and make me incel this wouldn't happen.