I believe the term is retrocausation / nonlinear causality
the possibility that cause and effect operate backward through time, not just forward.
The future can affect the present and the past, just as much as the past and present can affect the future. The future has affected events in the past.
The closest philosophical term is retrocausality, also called backward causation. It describes the hypothetical possibility that an event in the future can influence an event in the past.
So I am connecting retrocausality to suffering, spiritual awakening, and the consequences of personal decisions. Perhaps my experiences have not gone as smoothly as I anticipated.
Not just a ripple effect of bad experiences after a spiritual moment in their life but also realized a lot of the terrible things that happened to you in life is what led up to it. almost like that was the central experience that ricocheted onto your entire life. Whatever happened as a result of the spiritual point in your life, led to things/experiences being taken away from you, perhaps even illnesses that have prevented you to have full enjoyment of life. Whatever thoughts or decisions made during the spiritual experience led to perhaps poor decisions being made that resulted in a life where you are fundamentally enjoying it less as a human being. you then start connecting the dots and realizing all the bad things that had led up to that point, was a result of a decision made in the future, perhaps during the trip. has anyone ever experienced that... where something that happened in the past is a consequence of a decision made in the future.... (where as usually the future is a consequence made prior to that point).
connecting the dots between my event is especially not unreasonable since a lot of major negative downward slopes in my life started almost immediately after my experience. Like a ripple effect of unprecedented events in my life.
In short, making a profound decision and subsequently realizing that seemingly unrelated tragedies occurring years earlier were consequences of that future decision.