I 19F previously suffered from ptsd, so I am unfortunately familiar with terrible nightmares, and I had experienced sleep paralysis once a few months before too, the regular "scary entity crawled from my window to my bed" thing. What worries me is what happened this time felt nothing like I had ever experienced before?
I woke up around 6 am, I thought I'd not sleep back so I took my morning med which is 40 mg Citoles. It's hard for me to swallow pills so I take a saline version, which sometimes causes me to accidentally take a bit more than my usual dose, and this morning I accidentally took 70mg. Ik citoles isnt a heavy med and although I have BPD and AUDHD I don't think it could've effected me or triggered anything?
Before the seizure-like thing, I experienced a common occuring dream theme I have again where I wake up in the dream, to the pov I would wake up irl too, except the environment around me is either slightly or completely distorted. This time I saw the plushes in my bed and in my room besides the window frames of the windows belonging to the buildings I could see out of my window upon waking up. Usually dreams in this theme are more overwhelming, I see the colour of everything more vividly? And I feel so nauseous during them, and usually they feel too long, when I wake up I feel fatigue and nauseas asf, though this time it was so so so much shorter and not much nauseating.
Anyway and then I "really wake up". I'm not sure at this part if I was awake, because I felt too many things and it all felt so so so real, and I could think too. But somehow it didnt feel as real or I ddint feel nowhere mear as awake as I was when I was experiencing sleep paralysis. So when I "woke up", I felt a slight buzzing noise in my head, like a battery working mixed with static noise? Anyway, so I see the mirror in fromt of my bed, and I see a black thing behind me. I'm used to seeing shadows out the corner of my eye, I wasn't sure if its sleep paralysis and I keep trying to convince myself that its not and it's just me miss-seeing something, and that there's nothing there. I try to move but I can't , I can't make noise at all either. I try to call for mom, I can't. The buzzing static noise keeps increasing and I can feel the vibrations in my head, it gets worrying and I start to believe I might be experiencing a seizure, so I try to reach for my phone, it's hard but when I do the buzzing noise stops and everything is back to normal?
I don't know if this is sleep paralysis because I was so sleepy throughout it, I didn't feel as awake as the other time, but everything was so real, I had never experienced a dream or anything similar like that before. Even the most realistic ones weren't like this, I PHYSICALLY FELT the buzzing in my head. I felt everything, I was just really really sleepy. I don't understand what it is?