hi, im a researcher at a university in England on a fixed-term contract, and honestly, im struggling with my supervisor’s behaviour. ive worked here for around two years and never imagined id experience something like this in academia.
she repeatedly asks about my sexuality and makes homophobic comments. once she said that people of the same gender shouldn’t marry because their children would be mentally ill. she’s also said her religion is better than others and made comments about preferring “white boys”. she knows i have ADHD and frequently makes remarks about it.
she regularly shares colleagues’ medical histories, personal information and private relationships with me. ive also been told she’s shared information about my health with others. she makes negative statements about colleagues that i believe are untrue, sometimes creating tension between people, and then denies conversations when confronted.
the workload is honestly ridiculous. im sometimes expected to manage three papers simultaneously, completing analysis, writing and submission within two or three weeks, sometimes an entire paper within one week. ive worked until 2 or 3am trying to meet deadlines. when i struggle, she questions my competence, makes me feel inferior and brings up whether she’ll extend my contract.
authorship is another major concern. ive written protocols, screened thousands of papers, extracted data, conducted analyses and drafted manuscripts, yet ive been removed from papers or had my first authorship given to someone else. when i question it, im told my contributions aren’t enough, despite spending months working on these projects.
professional boundaries are another issue. my supervisor is married with a family but has told me about an affair with a former colleague. she regularly cries about their relationship, discusses intimate details with me and another colleague, and shares his private information. im uncomfortable being expected to provide emotional support to someone who controls my employment. even during work trips, she frequently discusses colleagues’ private lives.
im also concerned about research funding. she travels abroad frequently, sometimes combining work trips with personal leisure, while we’re told there’s insufficient funding for staffing. i believe the colleague she described having an affair with also accompanied her on grant-funded trips.
all of this is affecting my mental health. im considering leaving but worried about losing authorship and recognition for months of research. ive also heard that two former colleagues experienced similar treatment before leaving.
i genuinely love research, but im exhausted and feel completely powerless. i don’t know how much longer i can keep working like this.
tl;dr: im an early career researcher dealing with a supervisor who repeatedly makes inappropriate comments about sexuality, religion and ADHD, shares colleagues’ private medical and personal information, imposes unrealistic workloads and threatens my contract renewal. ive also experienced unfair authorship decisions, inappropriate professional boundaries involving her personal affair and concerns about research funding. it’s seriously affecting my mental health and career, and im genuinely unsure how to handle this without risking everything ive worked for.