I consider myself an anarcho-communist, while also believing strongly in council communism. some argue councilcom is a form of anarchy while others label it as just a leftcom ideal. Personally I believe that councilcom is the best form of communism that eventually leads to anarchy.

I have been an anarchist for a couple of years now, specifically an AnCom. However, despite this, I became hyperfixated on learning about North Korea and the Juche idea. I learned about how a lot of the propaganda against the DPRK is either misleading or entirely false, and I became convinced that Juche was the way to go. I was convinced that Anarchism was too idealistic or even unrealistic entirely.

After a few weeks of this, I eventually came back to Anarchism after doing more research into the Makhnovshchina and Rojava. It felt like I broke out of my tankie shell and realized that it's not idealistic, nor is it unrealistic. This is real, and it works.

I'm still trying to figure everything out, and I feel pretty lost and unstable at the moment. I'm always worried that I'll somehow fall back into a tankie ideology even when I know better.

I'm ashamed to admit any of this, and I'm questioning if I'm a real anarchist or even a good person because of this. What can I do to stop mental flip-flopping and cement myself in my Anarchist beliefs? Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated.

Also, I'm sorry if this post breaks any rules or if it doesn't make sense; this is my first time posting on this subreddit.

TL;DR: I was an anarchist, then I became a Tankie, then I went BACK to Anarchism, and now I feel disgusted and confused.

Heyo

I want to distribute some kind of propaganda piece to help people build an emotional relationship and narrative around anarchism. For me in particular The Dispossessed has stuck with me more than any piece of theory I’ve seen. The book showed me not just a romanticized resistance but an explicit anarchist society in all its flaws and joys. That narrative is what has motivated me for all the years since.

I want to distro something that is able to be that for others. Distroing the whole book isn’t the best sell I think, a lot of people have trouble reading, so something within reasonable print range (10-15pp or so) would be accessible and affordable to produce.

I know I can work on this myself, but I don’t really write fiction anymore. So if someone else has already done this I wanna just distro their work.

Specifically I am looking for something that isn’t just romanticizing resistance, I want people to get a peak at a better world, what we’re actually building and striving for. The dream that keeps you warm when it’s cold and hard.

I figure a comic would be the most ideal, but any short fiction would work. Maybe I could even work on adapting an existing piece to a short comics

Tangentially related, do y’all have any stories or media that shows an anarchist world you believe in? Regardless of if they’re reasonable to distro.

Premise 1: Everybody has a legitimate claim to have political power over that which affects them.

Premise 2: The modern state, via their chosen representatives of a central power, impose majority rule unjustly upon those who don't consent to being governed.

Conclusion: By participating in choosing a representative, you're using the lack of a legitimate political power that the people should have as a means to your own ends. In other words, if the people were truly free, you wouldn't be able to choose who can or cannot govern them and by voting you're using their lack of freedom to pursue your own political goals.

Notice that my argument doesn't depend on the idea of every representative being equally bad for the people or whether voting is useful or not. My argument is based on the illegitimacy of using the power of the state in any way as a means of anarchist political praxis, prior to considerations based on outcomes.

Getting ahead of some responses, I don't believe that voting can be justified through self-defense. This is because most (or at least many) of the people being affected by the representative you vote for are not the oppressors in any sense, so their claim of their liberty being respected prevails and is prior to any objective you may accomplish through voting.

It is also not legitimate to say that their freedom would've been taken from either way, because that doesn't change the morality of your action. When participating in representative democracy, you're using the system for your own goals, and taking advantage of the fact that the people are being oppressed by being governed. And even though that doesn't change the reality of the people being oppressed or not, in one case you use their oppression for your own political goals and in the other you do not.

I don't mean to convince any person who thinks voting is a legitimate and effective way of changing people's lives, although I may doubt if these people are really anarchists. My argument is really directed to the people who think that voting is a very small complement to a much more important anarchist praxis. This is because, if one admits that voting makes such a small difference compared to other activities, one may be more open to the argument I gave to not vote, since the moral cost of doing so is very high on a principled stance.

I hope you found the read interesting, I'm open to discussion in the comments :)