Hi everyone, I'm Judas.
I hope this post is ok. I wanted to introduce myself and hopefully make some like-minded contacts as I'm feeling a bit like no-one at all gets me or has any desire whatsoever to try to recently.
I'm 41, white, cis-male, homoflexible dog-dad and I'm based in Warwickshire, UK. I have discovered through considerable experience that my political beliefs have radically outgrown the political sham we're all expected to participate in.
I'm anti-capitalist, anti-fascist, passionate about human rights, and a firm believer in mutual aid and community-led change. I'm still exploring anarchism fully, but the more I learn, the more I recognise ideas I've already been trying to put into practice for years. I just didn't realise that it was what it was, if that makes sense?
In 2022, I founded a grassroots LGBT+ & local community organisation that grew to around 70 members. We successfully supported people seeking asylum, challenged discrimination, questioned local authorities and politicians, contributed to local press coverage, and successfully challenged council campaigns, including securing the removal of signage unfairly targeting young people.
That probably sounds rather impressive. The less glamorous reality is that an awful lot of it has been one bloke, a laptop, an unreasonable number of emails and a Jack Russell (photo attached for hopefully the benefit of cute-canine-clout) who contributes absolutely nothing administratively. This is especially true as the group began to really get up the noses of the local authorities, community influences such as the church, the fed and the wider institutions including the local M.P who actively hates me - which I'm THRILLED about of course. One of my greatest personal achievements; even if I do say so myself. Unfortunately, the smear campaign was real and it drove a lot of members out and set running scared.
So, frankly, I'm exhausted.
I live with degrees of diagnosed PTSD, depression and anxiety, which can make consistency and everyday functioning really quite difficult. Some days I can challenge and shake up an entire institution a bit. Other days I struggle to answer a damn text message.
I've spent years trying to create community for other people, yet somehow ended up feeling profoundly lonely myself. There's a certain irony in that which isn't entirely lost on me.
I'm not looking for sympathy or someone to rescue me. I'd just truly love to connect with people who share my values, whether that's through friendship, mutual aid, anti-political discussion or even practical organising.
Outside of the activism, I'm a theatre obsessive, writer, voracious consumer of memoirs and psychology books, and someone whose brain insists on turning practically every conversation into a fucking musical.
I'd particularly love to meet people around Warwickshire/Leicestershire/ Northamptonshire or generally the Midlands, although I'm equally happy connecting further afield of course.
I'm curious how others here handle their calling to activism and connect with others who may have built sustainable, genuinely supportive communities and not completely burnt themselves out in the process.
Because right now I still continue to believe wholeheartedly in collective action. I'm just beginning to realise that the collective part is rather important. And "no man is an island."
Hope to connect soon,
Jude