r/piano • u/Interesting_War_5911 • 9h ago
🤔Misc. Inquiry/Request Am an attention seeking piano enthusiast, is this bad?
I’m a middle level player. I feel frisson when playing sad songs, it’s stronger when I play for people. Pretty sure it’s the attention, even if it’s from the demented elderly. Used to, but no longer fear playing publicly. I play at over a dozen local senior homes regularly. When the opportunity arises I will play at airports, subway stops, churches where I do blood donations and hotels. Now when I travel I will seek out venues(typically senior homes) to play at. Before going to my out of town uncle’s wake, after dropping my daughter and her friends at the mall and before going to an out of town college football game I zeroed in on a senior home to play. Most of times the front desk will look at me funny. Those who let me play inevitably will ask me when I can come back to play. Sorry, it was a one night stand. I really don’t care if others enjoy it as boosts my own internal ego. Am an old middle aged guy, but feel like if you PET scanned my brain, it’d look like a pretty girl seeking attention from men, not because she likes men but because she wants attention.

