Hey all,
I am an audhd person who experiences synesthesia, ideasthesia, hyper or prophantasia, whatever you wanna call it. For me, I can see movement and colour and impossible shapes when listening to music or eating, and I can kind of “throw” my perception to any body part. More than anything though, I have an extremely strong sense of distance, timing, and relation. I always know why and where and how I thought something, It’s like just a really vivid internal map that flashes in every direction with perception. I also am a semi professional tennis player, which I mention because in feeling one with my racquet, the way I feel and see every hit and make every microadjustment slashes in a similar way.
I have a real obsession with communication and language and art, I just love expression and creation full stop. My confidence and understanding of myself in this has made me a real true 100% optimist and lover of life ideologically, and it’s all downstream of this synesthesia or whatever. I feel my most myself and connected to the world when I have control over this rather than it be hijacked by my OCD/ GAD/ MDD. It is truly foundational.
I also was a prodigious chess player as a kid, but I was medically retired because I’d obsess over tournaments, and in the few games I’ve played in the decades since, I have felt a vivid activation of all this. I mention this because I don’t have much of a desire to use coluracetam to get back into this, or for tennis which I truly play for the love of the game and have almost no real competition in me, and no financial pressure.
I’ve been running Coluracetam and have felt it to be the thing for me. I’ve been taking sublingual doses, but am thinking about switching to higher, oral doses for the MDD and GAD.
I am wondering if anyone has any ideas about what I can compliment Coluracetam with, or if anything I described seems indicative of certain systems that I could be targeting.
Currently, I’m running
- Wellbutrin (which seems to have a terrible rep; it really helped me in an MDD state and gives me the energy to put stuff away and take care of myself basically, but I’m open to lowering my dose down from 150xl because I do think it makes me jittery and has worsened my sleep teeth clenching and the CYP interactions are kind of annoying)
- Citicholine (which has anecdotally made my once-a-week cannabis usage so much better; I hate hate hate hate hate feeling lost or out of it while I’m high, though the next-day fog has always been my biggest deterrent by far, and choline kinda nukes that, I think.)
- NAC
- Lions mane and wild salmon oil (both are superstitious for me, idc)
- Adderall XR
- Mag3 (is this the best form for my case?)
I’m curious to try for general ocd/MDD support:
Tropisetron
Luvox
Trintellix
And I’m curious about these for enhancement of Coluracetam specifically, in my very limited knowledge of all this. I think maybe they work on similar systems.
Aniracetam
Oxiracetam
Any other ideas!! Thanks guys!