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. . . ok, so...today i watched episodes 15 and 16 of "Neon Genesis Evangelion"!

i've been posting my thoughts on the episodes for 2 whole weeks now!

and man, it's been a blast!

. . . ok, so...YOU PEOPLE WEREN'T LYING WHEN YOU SAID THIS WAS A TURNING POINT.

i really loved both episodes...and it was nice to see more. . . eventful things happen in the story, compared to 13 and 14...

soooo:

-i think the way the day of Yui's death anniversary is handled in ep 15 is really graceful. there is a lot of unspoken feelings in Shinji and i liked the conversation between him and Gendo, however short. Shinji's also so sweeet for bringing a bouquet to the tombstone!

-y'know, i've spoiled myself a few scenes from this show before watching it...that was a mistake, but it hasn't ruined the series for me 'cause of how disconnected each is from the other and 'cause getting to know how we get at such point is kind of...the whole reaon to watch the series and movie in it's entirety...there's this scene in EoE that happens before instrumentality begins, is that one scene where Shinji chokes Asuka...and they're wearing the same things in that scene as in a scene from ep 15...where Shinji is kissed by Asuka, Asuka then pulls away and goes to wash her face, basically remarking that she didn't like the kiss. i think the parallel from EoE is...pretty hard to ignore, just that in EoE, there is a whole conflict and things just get a whole lot more messy...culminating with the now infamous choking scene before instrumentality. i think the scene in EoE, as many have theorized, is not really happening in the physical world...and it may as well be how Shinji saw the whole kiss thing when it happened.

-the conversation between Misato and Kaji from where he takes her back home is pretty interesting and insightful. she says that she ran from Kaji 'cause he reminded her of her dad. and that she thought she basically hated her dad, so that's why she left Kaji. now, this is so far a tell don't show kind of thing...like- there is no flashback or anything, just words...so i can't exactly say what happened in there, but i think this introduces to an interesting fact: Misato is insecure too. she's not as confident in herself as she shows...and that's a common theme within the characters from this show, interestingly enough...a lot of people deal with self hatred IRL, and this show did a good work representing how that works...Asuka (partly) hates herself, Shinji hates himself, Misato hates herself somewhat too...it's sad, but realistic. we, as humans, tend to feel a lot of guilt...even for things that aren't our fault or otherwise we shouldn't feel as bad for. the kiss scene, though...the kiss between Misato and Kaji...i don't know if Anno intended it to feel as a good, bad, or neutral thing...for me, personally, it felt neutral...he dropped her off home afterwards, anyhow.

now for ep 16:

-y'know, i had watched an eva iceberg video sometime before starting to watch eva proper...and one of the entries was that ep 16 always had a quality drop...'cause like- the original recording was lost or something....AND IT SHOWS. like- the website i watch eva in has all the eps in HQ of course and then ep 16 DOES look somewhat like something from the 90s. it's not like- shitty. it's just a bit lower..but i noticed, hah...

-i think the fact Shinji showed himself more courageous....more confident and somewhat cocky in ep 16 due to his sync tests being the best is a bit of an affectionate parody to how normally some shonen and mecha protagonists do tend to act even when faced with situations they, realistically, would feel conflicted in...interesting. also to drive the plot forward obvs 'cause like- that's why he gets swallowed up by Leliel and almost FUCKING DIES.

-that scene of Yui saving Shinji....like- not only the scene of eva 01 (which has Yui's soul) tearing through Leliel...but also the one before with Shinji being dragged up by a white figure who shinji responds "Mother?" to....is really interesting and nice...it IS literally Yui, what's left of her, saving Shinji from dying 'cause he was literally about to die.

-the scene of Misato hugging Shinji while crying near the end may be my favorite out of these 2 eps....i cried a bit too while watching it...the fact that SHE saw HIM wake up and her immediate response was to hug him out of relief is really...REALLY emotionally compelling and moving.

-you see the frame i chose? it's from the scene near the end of ep 16...where Shinji wakes up in the hospital with Rei sitting beside his hospital bed...Rei literally mirrors Yui's words in that scene when he's about to die...."well, that's good for you"...i found that really curious...AND IN THAT SPECIFIC FRAME IT SEEMS LIKE REI'S SMILING...or if not, there STILL is something somewhat tender (or concerned) in her expression. it's not the typical Rei flat expression...and i think this can mean that she, in her own way, is happy that Shinji survived just like Misato...just more subdued.

overall i really liked these episodes! i'm glad i watched them

thanks for reading!

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I don’t know if it’s fair to call it a full cosplay since it’s just a closet/makeup test for the head area. I deeply admire cosplayers and know how much effort goes into making the outfits, doing photoshoots, and everything else. Maybe next time I can do the whole outfit, but this is what I could manage for now and I’m really happy with it

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​Hey everyone, I spent a lot of time putting together a comprehensive, systematic breakdown of how Evangelion actually works underneath the surface—re-evaluating soulless Evas via Neural Imprints, the physical role of LCL, and a sequential transmigration model for Adam's soul. Would love to hear your thoughts on this!

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I know the creator said he was just using Christian symbolism to be edgy yada yada but I’m pretty sure he was lying. Instrumentality, there being a master race that humans stemmed from, the whole soul having to figure out duality and that being the marker of evolution is, is at the heart of Masonery ceremonial magic which the show JUST HAPPENS to have symbology out the wazoo of. Like even what Selee said at the end about ATONEMENT being needed. Esoterically that means At one ment. Aka what instrumentality is trying to do to all souls. I think tbh instrumentality at some point will happen to the human race but just not unconsentually. This understanding of duality is also at the heart of Satanna Dharma. I mean i’m not gonna even lie to you i’ve meditated and done some fun things and I damn near instrumentation ed myself 😂😂. And the ego DOES have to go through what shinji does through with instrumentation and it’s kinda terrifying. Anyways this rewatch of Eva has been really fun. Definitely like Shinji a lot more this rewatch