(tw: cussing/crude language, mention of hospitalization and physical ailments/long covid, death etc)

Hi! i’m 15F and i’ve been masking indoors and around people that haven’t been tested for illness yet, and i have since covid started. you’d think i’d get used to it by now but I always feel so weird like literally everyday. nobody else in my family feels that way. when i asked, they all said it stopped bothering them after 2022 ish when most people stopped masking. i think its just cause im a teenager who very stereotypical cares about what people my age thing of me, and I know logically i shouldn’t give any kind of fucks what they think of me because I know i’m not hurting anyone or myself by wearing a piece of fabric on my face, and that it couldn’t matter less that people are so weird about it, but i say all this then i go out and immediately want to just go back home. people at my school always say “why do you wear a mask, you do know covids over right?” and i always js laugh it off cause i dont want to cause issues cause im not that much of an arguer i guess especially with people im not friends with, but i js rly wanna hit them every single time cause how can people be so insanely insensitive?? like its fine idc if you think its a little weird but going up to people and insinuating that they’re stupid for not wanting to get sick (which i feel most people dont??) is abnormal and makes me less of a person.

the reason i dont is because both my mom and dad are immunocompromised. both my dad and mom almost died in the emergency room due to covid and long covid syptoms, and my dad is basically guaranteed to pass if he gets it again or any other major illness. I mean he’s out sick unable to walk when he gets a common cold let alone covid or strep. my mom went blind in her left eye and is having to get her gallbladder removed. these where all pre-existing issues but would’ve likely never become a real issue if they didnt get inflamed and worsened by covid (this is all what their doctors said)

less importantly but still; i got covid like 4 years ago and i lost the majority of my smell and my sense of taste and lost hearing in both my ears. not by a lot but enough to bother me i guess.

and i always wanna just scream at them “bitch my parents almost fucking died from covid shut your dumb ass up cunt” but obviously i cant do all that. anyways, any tips? i guess this is just about me growing and figuring out how to be confident but i js wish it’d come to me faster :’ )

edit: realized this is kinda just a rant, my main 2 points are that all that shit is happening to me and my family and yet everyone just sees me wearing a mask and says “oh well thats an idiot” like im not even a real person. and second that i care. like why do i care so much?? i have a good steady small group of friends that i love so much so why do i care that some bitch at school doesnt like me?? like i can say this but im still so insecure about it idk why

Anyone purchased from Bona Fide lately? Specifically their black Powecom** KN95s? **I ordered a large batch several months ago and unfortunately the expiration date was just a few months from receiving them. I’ve tried reaching out in the past but haven’t ever gotten get an answer on what the latest expiration date is.

So apparently I have a small chin. The 3M 8110S fits well but I have migraines and trigeminal neuralgia and its not the most comfy.

I also have pots and never feel like I get enough air…even without a mask

I tried a 3M Aura 9205 years ago - Was too big around chin

Moldex S metal free bought for MRI fits fairly well but Ive read it isnt as good as 3M 8110S. I dont think it seals as well as 8110S on me for everyday US vs mri.

Id love a small valved one too for when Im around non masking people as well as yard work (bad allergies).

Gray or black would be amazing but color is least important.

No ear loops - makes my neuralgia way worse.

Love the adjustable straps on moldex and that they were not cheap rubber like 3m 8110s.

Im Immunocompromised so well fitting and great filtering is really important.

Im in US

Any suggestions?