Hey I just need help, and I feel bad for posting it here, but I hope some of you read it and it doesn't get banned, even if it should. I now there are communitys dedicated to stuff like that, but I feel like that you guys, we as Linkin Park fans, can help me better then other people,
Hey guys, I'm in a situation that really wears me out. I'm going to school, and me and the other boys in my class just don't get along with each other. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we laugh together, but I'm just between some groups and not really part of one I think. Well it's hard to explain, but they are just talking shit about me and making fun of me, and I'm really done. Today, like sometimes, I got along a bit better with them, but then, my teacher wanted to talk with me, because of this situation and stuff. Those guys heard a bit of it. I went lunch, then we had to wait for something and I had to sit next to them. I even sat me a little further away from them, because it was such an unpleasant situation, sitting next to ten guys, who were, for no fucking reason, clearly pissed off of me, because they see me like someone who is a motherfucker and just telling shit, and then telling the teachers "aow yeah they bully me and are really bad to me, but of course I'm an angle" what I CLEARLY don't do. I know sometimes I'm also a motherfucker, and sometimes I talk shit, but what the hell is there that I can say alone, against fucking ten motherfuckers, that would let them treat me like that. And yeah, you hear me calling them motherfuckers, what of course, is not okay, but I'm so fucking desperate that I don't know what else to say. Well that now doesn't sound really hurting I think, but then they sat so absurd far away from me, what wasn't nice. Also once I sat alone in a row, and some guys had to come to me, and those assholes said, "Thank you, it's not my vault that you don't have any friends". I DID NOT EVEN SAID THAT THEY HAVE TO COME TO ME, IT WAS THE TEACHER. Even worse is, that maybe a couple of lessons after that, we talked to each other as nothing happened, even if I wanted to hate them, but I just couldn't, because hell, if I would hate them the whole time, I would feel even less then I already do, and then I would be ALL the time alone. Because of this situation I didn't went to our class trip, but at least many girls in my class showed me compassion. Even worse is, that I probably have derealisation since years, what also fucks me up. Well I can't say if it really is, but I think my live is so much worse then theirs. We have way less money then them, we can't go to vacation every holiday like them (yeah I know there are many people who also can't but that's not the point right now) and I have like thousands of allergies and stuff so I can't eat a tasty cookie if I want to. Well instead of going to a firework with my family right now, I rather write this post, and just stay at home because somehow I don't feel like going there and watching a firework. I don't know what I want you guys to answer, maybe just say some kind words. Just say what you think, or what I could or should do, I just beg you don't to write anything negative, I really can't hear something like that right now. When I was younger, I used to tell some chatbots this problems, but now that I use Reddit, I think it's way better talking to humans.