wake up, i pray
i try to meditate
an endless sea unfolds
i sit and watch the waves
the feelings that i loathe
begin to be replaced
serenity the goal
but we never graduate

THAT FEELING AHEN TOU WRITE A SONG AND YOU HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT AND NOW IM GOING TO CRH 😭😭

I've written such a banging song for college, and im so excited for it, and 😩😩😩

I dont know if I can post this here, sorry if I cant, but I have no one to talk to about this

Writing a lot more these days especially during moments of silent reflection. I love reading lyrics and figuring out the message or layers to them.
Would love to hear thoughts on what I’m expressing here .
Song title Velvet Knife

You look harmless.
White gloves hiding fingerprints
Champagne smile with a switchblade hint
Mercy dressed in a tailored fit
Everybody falls for it
Lipstick written like a warning sign
Silk wrapped tight around a loaded line
Truth was standing in the doorway
Nobody let it in

Slow hands
Cold eyes
Pretty things wear good disguise

Every heartbeat changed its pace
Trying just to match your shape
Truth arrived five drinks late
Looking for somebody to blame

Halo stitched with black thread
Every promise left half-said
You never pulled the trigger once
You just taught the room to aim

Soft voice
Steel frame
Everybody leaves changed

VELVET KNIFE
Cut so clean
Didn’t bleed till I got home

VELVET KNIFE
Sweet enough
To make a sinner call it love
One slow smile
One small lie
One more beautiful alibi

VELVET KNIFE

The blade apologized
That’s the part that hurt
Nobody saw the damage
Until the silence worked
The wound looked just like devotion
The scar looked just like trust
Velvet
Velvet
Velvet
Knife

VELVET KNIFE
Cut so clean
Didn’t bleed till I got home
VELVET KNIFE
Heaven wrapped in danger’s clothes
One last look
Close the door
Now you’re carved into the floor

VELVET KNIFE
Didn’t feel a thing…
Until I got home.

I think most people experienced that feeling in their lives - something between hope and apathy.
I had such strong feeling maybe a few years ago. It happens sometimes more often in lighter form as well. But I couldn't find a term for this feeling. But recently I woke up in the middle of the night and the last words I could recall from my dream was "Between Hope and Apathy". I really liked this phrase and before going to sleep again, I wrote it down in my notes app.

A few days after I decided to create song lyrics based on this feeling and saved phrase in my notes.

My work:

[Verse 1]
I used to think
That my life
Was like my own film timeline

In my head
I had a script
Where do I find an open door

But as time has come to open it
I suddenly realized:
It's not just closed, it turned into a wall.

[Chorus 1]
And now, between the hope and apathy,
I looked around to find a new destiny.
And a new door was opened to my eyes,
Where there was always just...
a wall.

[Verse 2]
I used to think
that my life
Was like a melody I write

In my mind
I felt control
Over all its harmonies and notes

But as I cranked up the gramophone
I suddenly realized:
The vinyl warped, and the pitch was blown.

[Chorus 2]
And now, between the hope and apathy,
I tried to stop and hear a new melody.
And then I've heard the music of my life,
because I stopped to dissect...
the key.

What do you think about this text? Have you ever felt like this in your life? I would like to hear your stories and your thoughts about the lyrics itself. That's what I experienced a lot of times during last 2 years maybe.

P.S: For those who would like to hear it as a song, I uploaded it on YouTube. You can find it in YouTube search by typing: WallieSpyCat Between Hope & Apathy

“This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I just don't want you to worry
This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em
'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale”

Just appreciating these lyrics a bit tonight as I’m going through some things.

Please be honest, but polite.

Song Name: We Both Burn Down

[Verse] 

You'd turn a small flame

Into hellfire

I wore the burns 

Of your blame

When I struck a match

You'd put it out

Now you're the one

With fire in your mouth

[Pre Chorus] 

I swallowed all your lies

Now I'm burning inside

This flame of mine

Could flare any second 

[Chorus] 

I shed my coat

Show you my scars

Then you tell me

That I've gone too far

Now’s the time

I burn the entire house

Down

Yeah, we both burn

Down

We both burn down

[Verse 2] 

I'll admit 

I've flared up at times

Still doesn't mean

You’d burn me alive

I remember 

When I was a child

I needed warmth

Now when we touch

We both get burnt

[Pre Chorus] 

I swallowed all your lies

Now I'm burning inside

This flame of mine

Could flare any second 

[Chorus] 

I shed my coat

Show you my scars

Then you tell me

That I've gone too far

Now’s the time

I burn the entire house

Down

Yeah, we both burn

Down

We both burn down

[Bridge] 

My mask of ice

Now it's melting

While I burn inside

I don't want to burn

I don't want to turn

Into you

[Chorus] 

I shed my coat

Show you my scars

Then you tell me

That I've gone too far

Now’s the time

I burn the entire house

Down

Yeah, we both burn

Down

We both burn down

I see a beggar over there by the sideroad but I got no, I got no more to give.

Beneath my clean cut visage a soul searching for what it means to live.

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh I got to find eyes to see.

Deep down, I already know nothing in life is really free.

So I keep on walkin

Yeah, I keep on stumblin on.

I keep on, keep on crawlin

In search of the light long gone.

Way down by the old boardwalk, Past the glitters and the golden city lights,

A broken down lil shanty town

Where the unseen masses spend their nights.

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh No lantern to light the way.

Dark and deep making angels weep with every sad note that's played.

So I keep on walkin

Yeah, I keep on stumblin on.

I keep on, keep on crawlin

In search of the light long gone.

In the lowest moment, the thunderheads cleared away.

Was lost for many years, spent all my money and tears

Now I finally see the light of day.

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh finally I can rest my head.

All the anger and pain, the guilt and shame

Mean nothin when you're gone n dead.

I kept on walkin,

Yeah, I kept stumblin unaware.

I kept on, kept on crawlin

Lookin for what was already there.

Evry time you pass that sideroad, and you walk by that boardwalk so old,

Remember the people who've walked there before you

Who lived hungry, broken and cold.

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh pray that your eyes can see.

Don't walk on by those who ache and cry.

Otherwise, you'll end up like me.

Original song that means a lot to me, but do yall think it’s good?

What’s the source of the evils you enjoy
And the good you suffer
We’re only what we make
The labor puts us under
You’re choosing life, yet refusing to live
So what’s really left

When I’m not loved am I less
I’ll maintain my spirit to despise
If you keep your power to repress
But spirit isn’t drive, and power ain’t reward
With so much to do I’ll do something wrong

And how could you be so cruel
Over death I should’ve feared you
Why are you so quiet now
Get up and yell at me
I’m crying for backwards mercy

It wasn’t the worst to happen
It was just the most
Never held accountable
You take everything for granted
It’s worse than I’d hoped
It was inevitable, inevitable

There’s yet to be a death in my life I’ve denied
My horse of valor is a beast of burden
When everyone must’ve lied
But I still grieve to madness
And I worry cause it’s habit
How unnatural, immoral
Guilt has given me everything

It wasn’t the worse to happen
It was just the most
Never held accountable
You take everything for granted
It’s worse than I’d hoped
It was inevitable, inevitable

Do we like the lyrics? What should it be named

Wedding bells straight from hell

I knew this was bound to happen 

Relationships from middle school and high school don't last they said

So I decided I would wait

Maybe some day he'd choose me

Over her 

Ok

But she's prettier

She's got long blonde hair

And she came first 

Way before me

Was I too late

Oh

Now I'm at the wedding 

And I'm not in the gown

I sit in the back of the room while she's walking down

And she looks so pretty in her stupid white motherfuking gown

I cant help but feel sorry for myself 

the girl who would never wear the gown

The girl who'd never find out. 

They looks so good they look so great 

They've been together since 6th grade

I wish that I was his this time

I tried I tried to wait

But alas time has passed

And now it's their big day

He never chose me over her

I'm not ok

But she's prettier

She has the softest face

An angel from heaven

I was to late

Oh

Now at the wedding they're saying their vows

His blue eyes are sparkling so pretty like they did back then

The boy I love is married to another girl 

She's wearing a pretty white gown

They say i do 

they kiss so slowly 

And I'm just a side character 

The girl who'd never find out

And he's still my best friend

And it hurts me every day

I'm happy for them but 

Years ago I Said I'd wait 

He said he thought they would be done by college because of different plans

So wait I wait I wait I wait

I'll never find out what love is like because they said their vows

And now I'm in my hotel room

The door is broken down

They find me on the floor deceased 

I couldn't take it anymore 

I waited since I was 15 

I gave up it was over

I'd never feel love again 

I am Dead

La da da LA da da LA da LA da da da da da do

Dum di dum dum dum dum di

La da di da di dum

The one who never got to wear the gown

flooded by the memory of you
ideals i held
that now ring true

life is messy, past regrets
things that haven’t happened yet
stayed awake when i should have slept
not all movement means progress

in the recess of my mind
the circus comes, just in time
swinging wildly, spun in the air
no safety net, but i don’t care

trapdoors have closed, i’m in the ring
the paths i chose, this future bring

I have been working on this for a while but its still a WIP, open to suggestions/feedback

Broken mind, shattered just like glass.
What has come to pass? Why cant i pass?

Why must i, face this trial alone?
When no one is home, why should i go?

Every day, always on repeat.
The system cant be beat, i face defeat.

Were Shackled just like cattle
Fed the same fucking thing every day to dismay.

Forced to lie ‘bout our lives
Unable to survive, so i must ask why, and how long ‘till we die?

We are - Broken, shattered just like glass.
What has come to pass? Why cant i pass?

Why must i face this trial alone?
When no one is home, why must i go?

Every day, always on repeat.
The system cant be beat, i face defeat.

Locked in a cage with a key
We are forced to believe

“Stay right where you are
And you will get very far”

What a beautiful design
Made to crush all our lives

But i wont resign
Rewrite the design

Just twist the key
And now i am free

I am no longer - broken, shattered just like glass.
I shall come to pass. I shall pass.

I dont face, this trial alone
People are at home, i must go

Every day, never on repeat
The system has been beat, i have killed defeat

[just found this subreddit and wanted to contribute something i wrote a while back i made an actual song out of it but its one of the few songs that i actually like the lyrics i wrote]

slip your hands from the ropes

cut the ties from your feet

rip the tape off your face

and breathe just one sigh of relief

make your way through the hall

find the door to the street

burst out into the light

and scream

your instincts urging you to run

but the pain does not get left behind

your soul consumes itself with hate

which quickly spreads into your mind

now you're motivated by revenge

and until your satisfaction is found

no one will ever hold you back

they can only hope to slow you down

you're not someone to run and hide

you're not about to let this slide

they made you suffer for too long

but the pain has only made you strong

they will see the scope of their mistakes

when all they find is ropes and tape

and they realize that you've escaped

now they can only hope to do the same

Verse 1

Theres a voice in the back of my head again,

telling me im better of without my friends,

got a grin on its face when I lose my sleep,

put its hand on my throat when I try to breathe.

I know I know I know its coming,

hear that little voice and my mind starts running,

room gets smaller, walls start closing,

eyes wide open but the whole worlds frozen.

It feeds on doubt,

feeds on fear,

feeds on every little thought

that I shouldn't be here.

I give it an inch,

it takes everything,

now im watching all the colour

drain out of me.

Pre chorus

and I cant slow down,

cant shut it out,

its getting louder every time I scream and shout.

I try to run,

but where do I go

when the thing that's chasing me

is living in my soul?

Chorus

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

watch it take another piece of me.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

till there's nothing left underneath.

Eat my heart, eat my head,

eat the words I never said,

take my hope, take my dreams,

tear me apart at the seams.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

I can feel you underneath my skin.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

tell me where the hell do I begin?

If I fight, if I flee,

you just follow after me,

so I guess I'll let you take

every part of me.

Verse 2

Now I'm waking up with a mouth full of static,

every little thought getting more automatic,

youre a waste, you're a fake, youre a problem, youre pathetic,

same four voices and they never stop yelling.

Tick tick tick, hear the clock in the ceiling,

six in the morning and I still can't stop feeling,

everybody's sleeping while I'm fighting my brain,

trying to drown out the noise but it screams my name.

And it knows where I hide,

knows the things that I fear,

knows exactly what to whisper

when nobody's here.

It doesn't need claws,

doesn't need teeth,

it just waits for me to turn

all my anger underneath.

Pre chorus

and I cant slow down,

cant shut it out,

its getting louder every time I scream and shout.

I try to run,

but where do I go

when the thing that's chasing me

is living in my soul?

Chorus

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

watch it take another piece of me.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

till there's nothing left underneath.

Eat my heart, eat my head,

eat the words I never said,

take my hope, take my dreams,

tear me apart at the seams.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

I can feel you underneath my skin.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

tell me where the hell do I begin?

If I fight, if I flee,

you just follow after me,

so I guess I'll let you take

every part of me.

Bridge

WAIT

Maybe I don't wanna die inside,

maybe I'm just sick of trying to hide.

Maybe you're not stronger,

maybe I'm just tired,

maybe every time you win

I gave you what you desired.

So take the fear.

Take the doubt.

Take the voice

that's screaming out.

You can have the darkest parts,

you can tear apart my scars

BUT YOU DON'T GET ME.

Final Chorus

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

you can take another piece of me.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

but you don't get what's underneath.

Eat my heart, eat my head,

eat the words I never said,

take my fear, take my shame,

but you don't get my name.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

I can feel you underneath my skin.

CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME,

but I'm not letting you win.

You can follow,

you can breathe,

you can crawl inside of me

but you'll never get

all of me.

Let me get what i want

Oh Lord, we betrayed you like Judas

Selling you for our own brief desires

I am ashamed of what we done Sometimes I feel like a burden to you!

Why is it so hard to fight my own flesh? Why is it so hard to deny myself?

Why can't I realize a better plan for me?

I'm a sinner, not a righteous man

And because of that I need your mercy

I need your mercy every day my Lord! Why is it so hard to fight my own flesh? Why is it so hard to deny myself?

Why can't I realize a better plan for me?

I don't want to sin forever, and I don't want to burn in flames

Sometimes I feel so bound and blind

I wish I was an abortion, to never be alive

But in the darkest of my despair I see your gracious light

Lord forgive us, Lord give us strength

Lord forgive us, we know that your love never fails.

Written by Mohab

[Intro]

Dance, dance, dance, your head will roll!

You are dead... dead on the floor!

[Chorus]

I am a demon, demon... mon, mon

I am, I am a demon... mon, mon

Dancing under the moonlight

The streets are full of sins

They will drag you to hellfire

Where every sin comes right here

Since the first sin... Adam and Eve

In the volcanoes and the flames

Everyone is burning and screaming:

"Dance, dance, dance under the blood moon!"

[Verse 1]

Dance, dance... ahh

Show your wings and flap above hell

Dance, while the gods are displeased with you

Here, the greatest sins break apart!

[Verse 2]

Go to the disco, liquor is everywhere

Smoke and weed filling up hell in advance

Dance and set the place on fire!

Everyone is getting killed, screaming for mercy

And I dance to the sound of agony

I will enjoy you until the very last scream from your vocal cords

Which I will play like a guitar... you bastard!

[Verse 3]

In a world ruled merely by air and wires

People who turned the sport of Greek statues into a disease

The best dying at a young age

Mike, Mike screams, wanting his trophy from that damned Arnold!

Mike says: "I will wait for you, Arnold, in hell!"

Taking a fourteen-year-old kid... with a tiny injection

Making him look like the son of Zeus

It's just a needle that will turn you into a barbarian!

[Outro]

Dance now... you broken statue

Your silent cords will never play again

The needle dropped... and the moon dimmed out

Leaving your body... right here on the floor!

© Copyright 2026 Mohab. All rights reserved.

*So this is really just a few lyrics I came up with without much thought so do as y'all please with them.*

* ~ = drag out, BOLD = emphasize.*

Hello~ Matchmaker didn't know~ you were a player in this GAME CALLED LOVE.

So tell~ me Matchmaker why~ don't you~ walk the path~ that you guide, and guide, and guide others towards the ones they'll always love…

And yet… you stay in the background with no one by your side.

You don't try, carve, or grab all the love that you lead others towards even though you deserve it.

Well sorry~ Matchmaker but there's no going back to How THINGS USED TO BE! Because now that I've seen ya, now that you've shown your hand, I'll do whatever it takes to make you mine~!

So c'mon~ Matchmaker don't just sit there and be idle, let's see how big of a wave WE CAN CAUSE while playing this game everyone calls love~!

Oh Symbol Thing

Where Have you Gone

all in together time to rap at my leisure got my shit mapped like buried treasure

flipping sacred scripture and make it fresher.

with mad pressure that seem like it last forever

getting better at constructing math that you could actually measure.

and I'm only doing it for my pleasure no need to be trend setter.

when I could be a serial rhyme offender. mastermind with divine agenda to offend the member. of anger management group with a bad temper.

with lines that's splenda like fighting a man that's slender with an antenna.

for bumping Hanna Montana

make him become trans gender and change his name to savannah or Kenya just for testing my pen bruh

feeling like alduin world ender only contender you remember.

my shits been prophesied since the first of the first December.

that was the very merry birth of verse I used to dismember.

a pretender who extend the hand. of a fake friend

he was only in it to make end. now he's wondering where the pay went

while I say rhymes thats pre dating the dawn of man.

and he stay bent getting hit in his rear end for payment.

like a car crash call it fender bender. he learned it from his mentor.

who went to school. in city centre.

I went to school with a nerd name Spencer. who helped me cheat math whenever.

now I bust rhymes tough as leather. faster than the human eye can render

So it's best you surrender.

“Im a soul survivor in a time where being alive is questioned more than being justified, my records clean so they think things about but this biggest mistake would be to doubt me , im the benefactor the reason that what’s done off scene made the movie, trust and believe i keep more clips than a producer should be, im talented in arts that are foreign to some, if it’s war they want then I already won, only limited by the ones i place on me in other words my progress is unlimited til the top of the seems too comfortable for me, I could care less about what someone gotta say about me , I don’t live to impress I live to prove to myself it was worth it so all of the hate I just ignore it, I’m exploring on the verge of being better than what they ever could’ve thought if it’s lonely at the top ill be use to the thought, my mind’s spinning a million times a day if I slow down it’ll be hell to pay and that’s a lifetime fee so im constantly working I gotta make sure it was worth it…”

But I am an ocean wharf to a spaceship, oh woah / That seems to be what I can't get free from / I always want what's unattainable, oh woah / Truly, always, dogs I call for never come

I can imagine every hour, all my days / In fact, I've tested to a T / And maybe it's for people privileged / A person privileged won't be me

(I don't wanna share the whole song, so it's just a part)

These are lyrics I’ve written for my Death Metal band so they are pretty graphic in nature. Please do not read them if you are upset easily by grotesque language

She’s Dragged out of Bed

Kicking and Screaming

She’s Sentenced to Death

For not Believing

They Ripped off her Clothes

Violently Stripped Her

All in the Name Of

Perverted Scripture

Against her Will She’s

Brought to the Pyre

They Bind all her Limbs

Christened by Fire

Dozens are Watching

Priest Begins Sermon

“Were Gathered Today”

Justice Determined

Crowd begins Chanting

She Twists and she Turns

She tries to break Free

Cause soon she Will Burn

The Pyre is Lit

Smoke hits her nostrils

Her screams fill the ears

Of every Apostle

The flames reach her Feet

It’s up to her Knees

Hope Not Abandoned

She’s Still Screaming Please!

Hair Catches Quickly

Smells Fucking Awful

Her Screaming has Seized

Burnt Corpse is Docile

Finally Over

Embers still Flashes

Heretic has Been

Reduced to Ashes

Her Deaths not Enough

To Absolve her Sin

Must Burn all her Roots

Let’s Light up her Kids!